At Mon, 24 Sep 2007, terri wrote:
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>hello,
>
>as i sit alone at home and in so much pain and reading everones story i
>feel tired.i need to have surgey and i know it --you know your body
>better than anyone and i know what is going on.i am scared more this
>time than any of the other 15 surgies i have had,i have a rally bad
>feeling this time and i do not understand it.i never though i would ever
>get tired of fighting but i am now.and then on the other hand i know is
>a chicken -hit way out.
>
>why am i so scared this time?is it something i already know?i spend all
>the time i can hoping to find a answer for me on the web but i have just
>come along of stories like mine.i know this will never end for me
>because i think it is already to late.for the last years and many sgies
>they have only cut my adhesions lose and left the rest.my doctor tells
>me they are massive and thick and he is scared to try and remove them
>but i can not hardly move and forget about eating because i pay for it
>for hours.the lax do not help me anymore and i am puuting on weight as i
>speak and i am swole all over it makes it hard to breath.
>
>i have been dealing with this for 20 years and i have not ever been so
>scared or had this feeling before and i do not understand.i have a
>grandbaby coming next week and i having a hard time just sitting and i
>hope i can be there i know my kids were left out but now my grandkids.i
>though this was suppose to be the best years of your life.unless i talk
>to someone here i have no one who understands.i know people think youy
>are just feeling sorry for self and maybe i am but i know i am getting
>real tried.i have always got mad in the past and faced this head on but
>i think i am losing the fight.
>
>thanks for knowing there is someone out there out there that will read
>this.terri terri_schmitz@yahoo.com