At Tue, 24 Aug 1999, Laura Newman wrote:
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>Ginny...... If I could teleport myself to you right now I would give you what my Nana used to call a "big'ol bear hug"!!! Then, I would hold you like that for a good 5 minutes. You would be surprised how comforting a hug from someone who TRULY feels your pain can be!!!! Before this forum, I felt so lost and alone - - but NO MORE!!! All of you are such a comfort and blessing and I thank God everyday for all of you!! Ginny, you have a right to have bad days, indulge yourself because I feel that if you don't give in to that every once in a while, you will go mad!!!! NO ONE understands this kind of pain but us and we are all we have. Ginny, anytime you want to "reach out and touch" someone, I and the rest of us are here for you!!!
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>>>> Ginny King <gking@myrick.com> 08/23/99 05:30PM >>>
>Hey Guys,
>
>I really had a bad day today. The pain has been horrible and the
>numbness in my fingers and feet are making me stumble around and drop
>things. I think today I feel official depression. (I do take an
>anti-depressant for pain, I wish it helped more when I feel down) You
>know how when an a normally nice animal is in pain it can lash out at
>you? Well, that was me today. I lashed out at my business partner and
>my family for no real reason. I just feel so angry sometimes when I
>think I am doing everything that the doctors tell me to do and I still
>feel so lousy. Most of the time I can keep my composure (my co-workers
>and husband might disagree with that), but today was one of those days I
>feel so overwhelmed by it all. Then to add insult to injury, I get to
>feel guilty for not being in control. Pain can make you feel so
>isolated from the world. I wish one of you guys lived nearby so when
>the loneliness takes over you can just pick up the phone and call for
>help. Not that my friends and family aren't supportive, but they just
>can't understand...not the pain or the emotional wreckage it can cause.
>In the mean time, I thank God that this forum is here. Thanks for
>listening....Ginny