> -----Original Message-----
> From: rmasse2333@aol.com [SMTP:rmasse2333@aol.com]
> Sent: Monday, November 06, 2000 7:51 AM
> To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
> Subject: Re: Completely AWFUL doc visit...I'm in a really dark place
> right now
>
> Susan
> My heart goes out to you!! I have been right where you are now. Dont
> give up or give in!! There is hope. Try to get to a pain clinic, at
> least they will make sure you have pain meds. Even if you have to talk
> to your dr one more time. Once you get meds, then you can look for
> another dr. I am going to Germany alone. It is far away from home,
> but, I know I will come home feeling better. & the cost is less. I
> will send a prayer for you.
> Robin
>
> At Mon, 6 Nov 2000, Susan_OR wrote:
> >
> >Hi Everyone...
> >
> >I feel so alone and confused and desperate...I don't even know where to
> >turn or what to do. I have decided that I am done with my doctor and I
> >won't be going back. I don't think I'm going back to my gyn either...so
> >now I get to go thru the fun experience of finding new docs. I went
> >today and my doc prescribed Neurontin (has anyone tried this and what
> >did you think?) and then told me how it would most likely take a long
> >time to work, if it helped at all. So, of course, like anyone in pain
> >would...I asked her to refill my pain meds while we were waiting for
> >this to work. Can you already guess what the answer was? No...that's
> >it...just no. I asked her what I was supposed to do then...just suffer?
> >And she just looked at me like I had 3 heads. Dammit, I'm not a druggie
> >and I'm not crazy....I'm in PAIN! She said I am just too young to be on
> >pain meds all the time and that I have already been on them for 6 months
> >so she couldn't refill it. Like I want to be on them?!? I'm still in
> >pain and if they could offer me any other solution I would gladly stop
> >taking the pain meds, but that is the ONLY thing that helps at all. She
> >said, "honestly, I don't really think anything is going to significantly
> >help you and Dr. Peterson (my gyn) concurs". Ok, so what are they
> >doing? Humoring me? What the heck (not my first choice of words I should
> >say) are they doing and why am I paying them? I'm done with them. I've
> >only got 6 pain pills left so it's going to be getting real tough in the
> >next day or so. If I am too young to be on pain meds then I am too
> >young to just accept that I will be in this awful pain forever....I
> >can't just accept that. I just can't.
> >
> >I have thought about Scranton, but honestly, I don't know how we'd swing
> >the cost. Germany is a thought...but that just scares me to go so far
> >away. So, I'm still trying to grasp onto life savers closer to home.
> >I've been in contact with a Dr. Jerry Perez down in California in the
> >Bay area. I'm hoping he might be able to help. At least with the
> >lymphatic cyst, if not the adhesions. For right now, tomorrow...I've
> >got to find a doctor who will treat this pain. It is getting to the
> >point that I can't stand it one more second....let alone weeks. They
> >are going to find me holed up in some dark, dingy hole playing with
> >voodoo dolls in little white coats. Wouldn't that be fun?!? LOLLOL I'm
> >completely joking, of course! Just had to get that out. I really am
> >getting desperate. There just has to be a way to get relief.
> >
> >I'm praying for everyone who is off on their journey to wellness....
> >
> >Hugs,
> >Susan
>