Re: Needing Prayers!!

From: Tami Dana (tami_dana@hotmail.com)
Sat Jun 30 18:13:54 2001


At Sat, 30 Jun 2001, Browkenwing wrote: >
>I am having surgery on July 17,2001 and I am scared to death. The fear
>really takes over sometimes.I have had 4 other surgeries in the last 6
>years but the last one I had in august of "99" has really changed my
>entire life. My bowels have not worked right since nothing moves
>through me from the minute I put it in my mouth. I have been surviving
>on Ensure and jello lots of fruit,V8 juices,and 1 gallon of water a day.
>I have lost around 120 lbs and I have also shrunk 1 inch in height. They
>have tried every Laxative under the sun and it hurts terribly when my
>bowels move, and they usually don't work anyway.I can't digest anything
>not even crackers or pretzels.I have had every possible test and
>everything comes out normal. I have been to many different Dr.s and
>have really started to lose all hope.I could not understand why none of
>them would help me until I went and got my OR reports and there it was
>in black and white ADHESIONS. So I went to another Dr. with my Or
>records, he is supposed to be the best around here He is going to do an
>exploratory laparotomy and he said he would check me from my stomach
>down.I do not want to be cut on again but I can't keep living this way
>anymore!I can't do anything anymore I can't walk it feels like something
>is pulling on my left side,I can't play with my kids, and I can't even
>be intimate with my husband. My whole life is consumed by this horrible
>disease. Sometimes I feel like I just exist. I am sorry I did not mean
>to write a story here I just really could use some prayers to keep me
>going!! Thank You so much for listning.
>
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>Big Pain Free Hugs To All
> ~Browkenwing~

Dearest Browkenwing, First of all *HUGE Hugs!!* hun I understand what you are going through, I am sure we ALL do, we have all been where you are right now... and I know it is scary, no not scary, terrifying when you start to think about it. The way I try to deal with it when I know I am going in for yet another surgery and I am terrified is, I look at the way I am living right at that moment, the pain, saddness, depression, etc.. and I weigh it out- do I want to continue with my so-called life the way it is now or try another surgery and pray for the best? Well, normally after I have surgery, I am better, even if only for a short time...so yes, the answer for me is yes it IS worth it to have the surgery. The only thing I can do is let you know that I will be praying for you and that my thoughts are with you Browkenwing *Hugs* Stay strong and try your hardest to keep those scary thoughts out of your head... try to concentrate on how much better you will probably feel after the surgery hun, you can do this..I know it is hard, but you CAN do it =) *HUGS & PRAYERS*

>

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With love and understanding,
Tami Dana

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