My thoughts are with you, Brokenwing, from now until our surgery. It's good that you wrote in to get it all off you chest...sometimes, that in itself is a huge relief after letting all of that fear and pain build up inside. You know if there was anything we could do to make you feel better we would.
Lots of hugs and prayers coming your way.
Love,
Janet
>----- Original Message -----
From: "Browkenwing" <anonymous@medispecialty.com>
To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS"
<adhesions@mail.medispecialty.com>
Sent: Saturday, June 30, 2001 3:22 PM
Subject: Needing Prayers!!
> I am having surgery on July 17,2001 and I am scared to death. The fear
> really takes over sometimes.I have had 4 other surgeries in the last 6
> years but the last one I had in august of "99" has really changed my
> entire life. My bowels have not worked right since nothing moves
> through me from the minute I put it in my mouth. I have been surviving
> on Ensure and jello lots of fruit,V8 juices,and 1 gallon of water a day.
> I have lost around 120 lbs and I have also shrunk 1 inch in height. They
> have tried every Laxative under the sun and it hurts terribly when my
> bowels move, and they usually don't work anyway.I can't digest anything
> not even crackers or pretzels.I have had every possible test and
> everything comes out normal. I have been to many different Dr.s and
> have really started to lose all hope.I could not understand why none of
> them would help me until I went and got my OR reports and there it was
> in black and white ADHESIONS. So I went to another Dr. with my Or
> records, he is supposed to be the best around here He is going to do an
> exploratory laparotomy and he said he would check me from my stomach
> down.I do not want to be cut on again but I can't keep living this way
> anymore!I can't do anything anymore I can't walk it feels like something
> is pulling on my left side,I can't play with my kids, and I can't even
> be intimate with my husband. My whole life is consumed by this horrible
> disease. Sometimes I feel like I just exist. I am sorry I did not mean
> to write a story here I just really could use some prayers to keep me
> going!! Thank You so much for listning.
>
> --
> Big Pain Free Hugs To All
> ~Browkenwing~
>