I am having surgery on July 17,2001 and I am scared to death. The fear
really takes over sometimes.I have had 4 other surgeries in the last 6
years but the last one I had in august of "99" has really changed my
entire life. My bowels have not worked right since nothing moves
through me from the minute I put it in my mouth. I have been surviving
on Ensure and jello lots of fruit,V8 juices,and 1 gallon of water a day.
I have lost around 120 lbs and I have also shrunk 1 inch in height. They
have tried every Laxative under the sun and it hurts terribly when my
bowels move, and they usually don't work anyway.I can't digest anything
not even crackers or pretzels.I have had every possible test and
everything comes out normal. I have been to many different Dr.s and
have really started to lose all hope.I could not understand why none of
them would help me until I went and got my OR reports and there it was
in black and white ADHESIONS. So I went to another Dr. with my Or
records, he is supposed to be the best around here He is going to do an
exploratory laparotomy and he said he would check me from my stomach
down.I do not want to be cut on again but I can't keep living this way
anymore!I can't do anything anymore I can't walk it feels like something
is pulling on my left side,I can't play with my kids, and I can't even
be intimate with my husband. My whole life is consumed by this horrible
disease. Sometimes I feel like I just exist. I am sorry I did not mean
to write a story here I just really could use some prayers to keep me
going!! Thank You so much for listning.