Hi everyone! I haven't written for a few days now, as I have been having
a pretty hard time. Sunday and Monday weren't bad..about a 4 I
guess....until around 12 or 1 (which is normal for me) and then I was up
to a 6-8. Laid down most of the two afternoons. Today, has been around
9-10....Pretty bad day! I am almost out of pain meds, which causes a lot
of anxiety! I called the Dr.'s office yesterday and today, for a
refill.....but nothing yet...Guess I'll have to call tomorrow too!
Either that, or I will call my GP here in town.
I have a question......Does anyone else have teenagers? My son is either
SPOILED WROTTEN! Or he's really mad about my being sick. He said
something today about the fact that I can't hold a job for more then two
months, (I was laid off Sept. 29 from a job I had for 1 1/2 years and
began a temp job on Oct. 3..Job ended last week)....I asked him what
the heck he meant by that and he said that as a "Parent" I wasn't doing
a very good job cuz I can't hold a job and I am sick all of the time any
way and we can never do anything but stay home and watch TV and play
cards together......That hurt my feelings SOOO bad! When I asked him if
he really thought I was a bad parent, he said he was trying to make a
point....but couldn't explain what the point was. Before he said this,
we were discussing the fact that he hasn't been doing his chores, but
yet still goes to Basketball practice etc......I dont know! I feel bad
enough, being sick and not being able to do much with him....Money is
somewhat of a concern too....Though as I pointed out to him....He has a
home, electricity, cable tv, school cloths, money for lunch every
stinckin day......
Am I just being overly senstitive? Is he just venting his own feelings
about this stinkin disease? PLEASE HELP ME TO UNDERSTAND AND LEARN HOW
TO HELP HIM DEAL WITH THIS! I truely don't know how to handle this one!
I'm so thankful that IAS is here! You have all helped me through the
last week in more ways than I can put into words!
Kelley