I am 41 years young, at least I use to feel that way. But with God's
help & the right tools I will again. I live in Ontario, Canada.
Since 1992 till 2000 I have had about 17 surgeries. Over 3/4's of them
were unnessary. For many years now I have been existing in a nightmare
of chronic pain, caused by all these surgeries. My doctors "THINK" that
one of the reasons I have chronic pain is due to scar tissue &
adhesions. I have been poked & prodded, humiliated & have very little
self worth or self-esteem. I've had more tests then you can possibly
imagine. Most of these tests have left me feeling vulnerable, naked,
degraded & humiliated. I've had surgeries that starts with Tubal
Occlusion, to Tubal Reversal, Laparoscopys, Laparatomys, ectopic
pregnancies, hysterectomy (which I still have my right ovary and tube
left). I recently found out that I not only didn't need to go through
these unnessary surgeries, but that my hysterectomy could have been
avoided altogether. The anesthetic alone is very harmful. All of these
procedures have left me with emotional, mental & physical scars. I have
2 beautiful boys & I thank God for that. But now I cannot have anymore
children, & I feel the doctors took away that choice from me. Especially
when I did not want the hysterectomy to begin with, and I had to make up
my mind there and then. The reason they gave me to have a hysterectomy
was that it would take away my chronic pain, which it did not do, but it
did add to the already chronic pain. I am on a prescribed narcotic
which is also causing me alot of problems. I have tried to get off of
them but it really does a number on my chronic pain & I go through
horrible withdrawl symptoms. Not only am I suffering, but so have my
two sons & husband & my family. It is very hard for me to see my family
see me this way. I use to be a happy go lucky, go-getter type women. I
now feel like a hollow, I wanted to say women, but that is something I
don't feel like. I am in the process of going into a treatment centre &
taking care of other legal matters. My story could go on & on, but by
the time I was finished you'd feel like half your life had gone by. I
do feel scared, alone, confused, and have some anger issues to deal with
because of the doctors & other issues.
I would welcome and greatly appreciate anyone's feedback and help on
this matter.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope and pray that we all
get the help and answers we need.
" HERE IS TO LIVING A LIFE."