At Sat, 21 Sep 2002, Chantale wrote:
>
>Im sorrry but this will be a short note and dont know when I will be on
>next. My lofe has taken a drastic turn for the worst since getting out
>of the hospital. I live in a daily hourly fear of this horrid place i
>am currently in. I have been having horrrifiic panic attacks one after
>the other since i practically got out of the hospital. the docotrs
>think that is from comming off of the morphine and all the pain ive been
>enduring for the last three years. Im so sorry i cant be with you all
>but right now im sturggling to survive. I love you all and miss you but
>this may be it for a while till i can be human again. Er doc is getting
>me into a Phychiatric program starting Monday hopefully to gert on the
>proper meds and what not. IM so sooory I love you all and my heart is
>breaking here as im writing this letter. tears are streaming down my
>face. i want to be there for you all as you have been there for me. I
>do ask something of you though. PPlease pray for my family so that they
>will get theeir Mommy back. I am so scared they will think im crazy and
>try to take my loves awaay from me.
>
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>Chantale
>