Thanks for your input. It really does help to know that I am not crazy, and if I am, then I am not the only one, lol. The morning is the worst for me. It seems the more I have to go the worse it is.
My heart goes out to you and hubby. My husband and I went through that, but I can honestly say not for the length of time you have. I talked to my husband and explained that it made me more depressed not to. I felt like he didn't want me anymore. He told me he was afraid to hurt me and I said I know deep down that that is the reason but the woman in me saw it differently. Sometimes being in pain is worth being close. I sometimes take pain meds if I think we are going to. That does help with the pain during and after. However, the down side is no "O". But again sometimes it is worth it. I am a person who craves affection, so just being close to him really makes me feel good. (I hope this isn't to much for anyone on the board. I am sorry if it is).
Well, have a great and pain free day Ivy and onyone else reading this post.
Take care.
-- Ann Marie