I feel so alone and confused and desperate...I don't even know where to turn or what to do. I have decided that I am done with my doctor and I won't be going back. I don't think I'm going back to my gyn either...so now I get to go thru the fun experience of finding new docs. I went today and my doc prescribed Neurontin (has anyone tried this and what did you think?) and then told me how it would most likely take a long time to work, if it helped at all. So, of course, like anyone in pain would...I asked her to refill my pain meds while we were waiting for this to work. Can you already guess what the answer was? No...that's it...just no. I asked her what I was supposed to do then...just suffer? And she just looked at me like I had 3 heads. Dammit, I'm not a druggie and I'm not crazy....I'm in PAIN! She said I am just too young to be on pain meds all the time and that I have already been on them for 6 months so she couldn't refill it. Like I want to be on them?!? I'm still in pain and if they could offer me any other solution I would gladly stop taking the pain meds, but that is the ONLY thing that helps at all. She said, "honestly, I don't really think anything is going to significantly help you and Dr. Peterson (my gyn) concurs". Ok, so what are they doing? Humoring me? What the heck (not my first choice of words I should say) are they doing and why am I paying them? I'm done with them. I've only got 6 pain pills left so it's going to be getting real tough in the next day or so. If I am too young to be on pain meds then I am too young to just accept that I will be in this awful pain forever....I can't just accept that. I just can't.
I have thought about Scranton, but honestly, I don't know how we'd swing the cost. Germany is a thought...but that just scares me to go so far away. So, I'm still trying to grasp onto life savers closer to home. I've been in contact with a Dr. Jerry Perez down in California in the Bay area. I'm hoping he might be able to help. At least with the lymphatic cyst, if not the adhesions. For right now, tomorrow...I've got to find a doctor who will treat this pain. It is getting to the point that I can't stand it one more second....let alone weeks. They are going to find me holed up in some dark, dingy hole playing with voodoo dolls in little white coats. Wouldn't that be fun?!? LOLLOL I'm completely joking, of course! Just had to get that out. I really am getting desperate. There just has to be a way to get relief.
I'm praying for everyone who is off on their journey to wellness....
Hugs, Susan