I debated writing this message to the board because of the nature, then when i thought some more, I decided to go ahead, after all, it is adhesion related and I need some extra lovin' and support...you can pour on as much mushiness as you can possibly gush out, I promise to soak it all up.
My relationship has turned into a total disaster, it was tough before my surgery, and now that I am once again "limited" due to pain and other symptoms, my partner is full of rage, resentment and feeling terribly cheated of the life he has imagined. He says I'm the woman of his dreams, everything he's ever wanted, but...
It is very painful for me to let this relationship go, though that is what it has come to. I have loved this man with heart and soul and I am overwhelmed with grief that he cannot accept or adjust to living with my ARD, ultimately it feels like a rejection of me, and hurts my heart more than I can possibly say.
I have not been able to get back on my feet finacially since my surgery. My partner and my family have been helping me finacially for a good while now, it pains me to be so dependent.
Tonight, I am moving to the basement to try to gain a little more peace. I love Colorado, but have no family or means to stay here, so have decided to move back to Texas, where my parents have offered for me to live with them.
You all are my friends, and I just wanted to share what was going on with me. There have been several wonderful angels helping through this behind the scenes, and I would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude and love to all of you...you know who you are!
All of my love,
-- Janet