Hey everybody, well has not been a very good monday. Been in pain all
day then because I can't work financially I am strapped and I have just
had enough I don't know what to do anymore just feel like my life is
falling apart and I have no controll of anything anymore. When I was
working I was finacially secure. I use to be good at keeping my
finances in order and on top of all my bills. Now slowly everything is
falling apart. I do have a boyfriend but part of me doesn't want help
from him cause I wasnt to do things on my own so that I can say I did
it. I am sorry I am babbling on just really tired of all this. You
know the worse thing is I feel like just giving up I know I can't cause
I have kids to think about. But how can anyone live with adhesions and
try and get yourself fix to be pain free and to deal with lifes little
problems that come up. It is so darn hard and to tell you the truth I
just want to run away. I have been crying all day and try to figure out
what to do. You know sometimes I feel that nobody really understands
what I am going through. I am sorry I gonna just go but just felt I
need to write how I was feeling.
Well Love you all.